The Universe is Listening

If you read yesterday’s post, you’d know that I’m feeling a bit lost about my job situation right now.

Usually when I write things like that, I’m not writing them to elicit sympathy, or even to share my feelings, I write for two reasons, 1) because it makes me feel better and gives me a bit of clarity to write it down and 2) to help me remember in the future.

This time, though I didn’t want sympathy, there was an edge of frustration to my post. I just feel so overwhelmed by it all, I needed it out there, I needed feedback, I needed to know someone could hear me.

The universe heard me.

As you’re probably all aware, in addition to writing, I’m an avid blog reader. I follow 70-odd blogs and they change all the time.

One that I have consistently followed is a “self-help” style blog calledMarc and Angel Hack Life. It’s common-sensical advice about life, given in list format. I love it. I don’t always agree with everything, but many of the things they say I find enlightening or truly insightful.

After I posted yesterday, I had a long talk with my mom this morning (that always helps!) and then I hopped on my reader to check the daily blogs.

I hit Marc and Angel and the post for today was called: 12 Tough Truths to Help You Grow.

Interesting.

The entire post resonated with me, but the three that stuck out were:

1.Everything is as it should be.

This is something I truly believe, even when times are dark, but it is during the dark times that it is the hardest to believe. It’s difficult to force yourself to believe that you are supposed to be living through pain or disappointment or frustration, but sometimes we have to. It’s how we appreciate the times of joy and happiness and glory.

2. Not until you are lost in this world can you begin to find your true self.

This one hit home; as though it were speaking directly to me. I feel a bit lost right now and I don’t know which way to go, which way will make me happy. That was the whole point of yesterday’s post. But that single sentence helped me gain the perspective that I am supposed to feel this way right now, because I am searching for my true self.

And, finally, this one.

12. Everything is going to be alright; maybe not today, but eventually.

These are words that I really needed to hear. I believe that things do work out. I believe that no matter how hard it gets, it will get better. (Apparently I told that to Elena a while back and she clings to those words when things are tough for her.) I believe in this, I believe that this is just a phase, a moment in time, but golly it’s nice to hear someone say it.

I don’t know what possessed Marc and Angel to write this particular post today, of all days, but I am sure glad that they did.

Their few, simple words helped me to feel better. It made me smile to think that the universe is listening and it knows what I need. Today, it gave me exactly what I needed.

There is a line from one of my favorite poems (Desiderata, Max Ehrmann) that says, “whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.”

I’ve always found comfort in that. Today, the universe tried to clear things up for me.

Thanks, universe, I truly appreciate it. I hear you.

Blog Crack

Do you like names?

I’m obsessed with names. I think I may have to have 8,432 children just so I can use all my favorites. Sometimes I go to baby naming websites just to poke around.

I think about them, I write them out, I imaging various combinations, just to get to the perfect name.

I actually have (careful, your OCD is showing) a list of top ten names by letter for boys and girls. Think about that. 10 names per letter for boys and girls. 26 letters x 2 genders= 52 letters total x top ten list = 520 names.

Scary obsessive. I also have a secret list of my super-duper-uber favorite names that I don’t tell anyone, in case they might steal them. A few I’ve thrown in when talking to my mom (who, thankfully, loves names as well) just to get her reactions, but without letter her know they’re the all-time faves list. A couple she liked, a couple she didn’t. One of those got bumped because of her response, the other is still there, waiting for its comeback.

I’ll talk names with anyone. If you’re a friend of mine, you know this. Mindy sat through HOURS when she was pregnant the first time and we did the 2nd as well, but it was harder because I wasn’t living here and these conversation are best had over large plates of dessert.

Elena and I, both single with no children, have talked names.

Justin and I have talked names. I actually know his all-time favorite name and he helped me develop one of mine, through what started as a joke. (Nope, not telling, its on the list).

My mom is by far my most friendly supporter. When my brother was preparing for my nephew, we had idea after idea. And we got Simon. Then my sister announced and mom and I were over the moon. But, turns out, my sister had almost zero interest in discussing names, which was the saddest part of her pregnancy, for me. And we got Arionna.

You’d think online would be a mecca for baby names, and it is, but I’ve found that my tolerance for strangers insistence that “my child’s name is the greatest” wears very thin. It’s not a competition!

One day, I found this site, which indulges two of my loves, baby names and making fun of the crazies on the internet. I’ll warn you right now, I found this site YEARS ago and I still visit it regularly. I’ve read every word of each of the fifteen sections, multiple times, and I find the humor each and every time. This site makes me howl with laughter. Literally. I have actually laughed until I cried, reading this. I’ve sent the link to pregnant friends countless times. It is one of the few websites I can’t help coming back to.

Then, through the miracle that is blog hopping, I found the site Swistle: Baby Names.  People evidently write in with a list of names and rules for names real children and then she gives advice and suggestions. It is also open to comments, so the crazies are welcome to participate. And then, once the children are born, she posts updates on what the name actually is.

It is crack for blogs.

I’ve gotten next to nothing done today. (Which evens out how busy I was yesterday I suppose, this way no one can accuse me of working too hard!) I found this blog early this morning and I have spent most of the day reading it. It is possible that I could salvage some of the day and do some real work–since it is only 2:15, but it’s not looking good.

Truthfully, I can’t get enough. I love to read what other’s are thinking and then judge them for thinking that way. It might just be my favorite hobby. It isn’t like this blog is particularly funny, but there is something about the plethora of names in one place, I can’t help it. Entry after entry after entry, I just keep reading. Even knowing I should stop, I can’t quit.

Then I get to an update and I have to know what they decided upon. I’m powerless to stop my fingers from clicking. If this is what crack addiction feels like, um, yeah. I’m going to stop that train of thought right there.

Meanwhile, if you love baby names, hop on over and talk with me. Somebody shoot me a top five list, at the very least. Ten if you really love me. Boys, girls, mixture, I don’t care.

Lists of names? I get chills. My tippy-top favorites nicely bundled together.

To keep you coming back for more, here are a few of my very favorite name sites on the ‘net.

Think Baby Names

Baby Name Wizard

Baby Name Genie

SSA

Nymbler

So, if you’re like me and you don’t think you can go for a week without pausing to consider a name, check out one of these sites. They aren’t the most common, but they’re definitely the most interesting.

(Wow, I’ve been writing this post so long I can’t even remember how it starts. I kept getting distracted by the links. I’m not going back. I’m hitting publish and then going to read the live version. Fingers crossed it makes sense from start to finish!)