Another Lenten season behind us. Today is Easter Sunday. When I woke up this morning, the first thing I thought was that I didn’t get my letter in yesterday. I was not planning on Saturday being an all day event. But then, I reconsidered. I know that the plan was to blog every day and tell the people in my life how they have influenced me. This was my sacrifice, my trial, this religious term. However, I’ve thought it through and I don’t think that it is the doing that pleases you. Of course I should strive for excellence, but I think, as with many things, it is the trying that is the whole point.
Sure, I didn’t do this every day as I was supposed to. But I did write 40 distinct letters to people in my life, past and present. From the writing, I think that I have grown. I have had to stop my life, my focus on myself to consider my life as a whole. I have had to think about who I am and who I have become and then trace it back to figure out how I got there. I had to consider the things about myself that are the best points and the things that I don’t always like so much.
It was a period of reflection. It was a period of love. Not only love of God and love of self, but love of life, love of others, love of those who aren’t necessarily the ones we love the most. It is this, this realization that aligns most closely with your teachings. I believe, more than any previous Lent, more than anything I’ve ever given up for you, that this exercise truly brought me closer to you. I think it made me a better version of myself, in your name.
I think that I am still a long way from perfect, as evidenced in my failing to post promptly and on time, but part of your teachings show that we are all a work in progress.
These were letters to 40 people who have helped shape my life, but there are so, so many left to discover. I will change and grow and my life will continue to be shaped by others’ influences, and perhaps now I will be a bit better about recognizing it in the moment.
Thank you for being part of my life,
(to see why I am doing this, read here)